It's hard to live with uncertainty...

I was up till 2:00 am reading "Into Thin Air," (by John Krakauer) a book about a bunch of people (crazies) who tried to climb Mount Everest on one bad day when many of them died...then I got depressed and went to sleep.

I have also been thinking about a focus group I once observed because I was working as a notetaker. It was composed of women who owned "luxury handbags," that is purses that cost ten grand or more. Some of these women had more than a $100,000 worth of bags in their closets. I sat behind the one way window with the marketing gurus who observed them like zoo animals.

I don't know what's more insane, climbing to altitudes that will decay your body, or investing a fortune in purses that look just like the downtown knock-offs.

I guess it helps me think about these people when I'm unemployed and unsure what's going to happen next in my vida loca...(my Latina self coming out).

Just for today, I'm feeling on the edge.