Yes, I know. I've relinquished my "attitude of gratitude" for the familiar experience of feeling victimized by the life I've unconsciously co-created (damn New Age philosophy).

Am wondering if my marital status would be different if I were more desperate. If I really felt that the single life wasn't worth living I might be more motivated to do things like raise children and be a "wife," and maybe then I would meet someone "appropriate" (i.e., someone willing to have a meal and see a movie)...if not equally desperate.

My sister thinks that all she has to offer a relationship is her good taste (she's wrong...not about the good taste part). I don't know what I have...faith in a soul mate connection? And, really, what use is that? A good mother affects the future generation. All a good soul mate can do is empathize with your bad childhood and agree that Gonzo was an underrated muppet...

Things did pick up this afternoon when Super Evil Flash Programmer (he's been promoted) told us about the time he attempted to say something in Portugese that he learned from his Brazilian Wife to Baked Goods (he likes cupcakes A LOT). However, SEFP "accidentally" ended up asking Baked Goods to have sex with him in the most vulgar way possible...(hmmmm...are there really any accidents?).

Just for today, I'm still not happy...but am cool with that.