So much as I claim to be a victim, I know that I am comfortable in the part. The point is, I don't want to break up with my boyfriend, I don't want to play the victim anymore, and I don't want to fail at love anymore. I'm ready to graduate to what used to seem boring, but now seems very freeing. I'm ready to give of myself as selflessly as I can, instead of seeing how much I can get. I'm ready to appreciate, without worrying about whether I am appreciated. I think Carrie said it best in the final episode of Sex and the City (love that show!)

"...I am someone who is looking for love, real love, ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't live without each other...love."

Just for today, I am willing to give ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't live without each other love.