I was so tired last night I decided to do the wash, work on my grad school application, and finish watching "Angels in America" [which is the 80th movie to feature a black man as the spiritual savior to The White Man, who in this case, are several gay men with AIDS which he (the black man), ironically doesn't have.]

Anyway, I WAS TIRED. And, it's usually when I'm really tired that I decide to analyze the subversive messages in popular media AND conquer the world, all at the same time, and usually at some hour like 1:00 AM. It's some childhood button that gets pushed, the same one that had me writing book reports at mid-night during Christmas break when I was 9-years-old. Probably the same one that made me say things like "Mom, how would you feel if I washed the car AND cut the grass this Saturday?" when I was 10...By the time I was in college, I was really over the whole workaholism thing...it just seemed so fourth grade.

Anyway, last night I finally just got into bed without getting the laundry from the dryer, without finishing "Angels..," without typing one thing on my computer, and without washing my face (but then I got up and washed it because not to is just gross). And when I woke up at 5:00 AM with dreams of having to urinate, I walked into the kitchen and realized that the monster my neighbor put on the porch looks like a man, and I jumped.

I fell asleep and woke up at 9:00 AM and felt really well-rested, like I had slept better than years. However, I noticed that the electricity was off. Which made me wonder, if electricity contributes to my insomnia.

Just for today, I can write about being tired.