It's so easy for me to feel like a little kid again. But not in a free-spirited, joyful way, more like a traumatized, please-don't-be-mad-I'm-sorry-for-whatever-I-did-let-me-fix-it kind of way. Which makes it really hard to have a relationship with someone who expresses more than one emotion. I don't care if I haven't seen the person or spoken to them in the last decade, I still feel that I have something to do with their neurotransmitters and serotonin levels going on in the brain of said person in that particular moment. And what makes it worse is that knowing this doesn't keep it from happening. I can say the affirmation, "I am not responsible for other people's feelings," all day and night and I'm still a ten-year-old trapped in a 32-year-old's body.

Just for today, it's OK to feel like an adult child.