My sponsor recently pointed out that I seem to feel that it's my responsibility to like everybody. Even if the guy behind the counter at the corner liquor store grunts and rolls his eyes if I ask for change in quarters to do laundry, I feel obligated to see that he's a "beautiful person." But why do I have to like everybody? (Because everyone is perfect in God's world. That's why!) But I don't like everything in life. I don't like it when it rains. I don't like the smell of urine on the street. I don't like cars that slow to look for parking spaces in front of me. I don't like war and poverty, and low sporadic water pressure (like the kind coming out of my shower head), and the fact that the only dark skinned people in my neigborhood are nannies and cleaning ladies.

But people are "children of God" and "they do not know what they do" (or whatever the quote is), and love heals everything and....blah, blah, blah. I don't think I have the energy anymore (or ever really did) to be this big, humanitarian, Mother Teresa type-person. I envy people who are - really! But to do this myself sends me on a path of total disconnection from reality (for me). Also, I guess I'm afraid if I don't like everyone, then I have to deal with the people who don't (God forbid) like me.

Just for today, I can find people irritating or even not like them, and (I guess) it's OK if people don't like me.